Created: January 9, 2009

I finally went to the doc today and was prescribed the antibiotic Augmentin to knock this out. And, because I finally went to the doctor - what do they always do?? WEIGH YOU! I was actually a little curious as it's been about 1-2 wks since I weighed in. I am 7 Lbs lighter!

I'm careful not to say "I lost 7 lbs" because losing something insinuates that it's lost and you're looking to retrieve it. "Good bye 7 lbs. I don't need you anymore and feel free to take about 24 more of your friends with you, away from me forever!"

I watched a couple Tivo'd Oprah episodes and Bob Greene said something profound. He said to ask yourself 3 questions and really journal about the answers.
1. Why am I overweight?
2. What am I really hungry for?
3. Why do I want to lose weight?

He pointed out that if the answer to the 3rd question is a number like a weight or a size, then you are setting yourself up for failure. Now I understand why I got so in shape and very thin years ago and it didn't "stick". I never did it because I loved myself and to be healthy. I did it because I wanted to be a size 2 and fit in with all the beautiful people in Snottsdale AZ.

No wonder it didn't last! He said most people don't have a "weight problem" they have a "love" problem. Well, there you have it. I didn't even like myself and thought that being thinner and prettier would solve that. WOW I wasn't even happy, I was obsessed with the numbers. I'd weigh myself every day at the gym and look at the ounces. I kept thinking if I was thinner, more in shape...that I would like myself and feel good.

I certainly have a lot of transformation to do, but it's not all physical. It's time to figure out the answers to those three questions!