Back In The Game

February 8, 2009

I don't even know where to start on what's happened over the past month or, so we'll just leave it at "I'm Starting All Over Today". Well, yesterday really. I have reasons for not having continued on my path to a healthier and happier life which are too personal to share on the WWW.

The most important thing to know is that I'm a stronger person and I have a mission. I have a support team too, which is essential. I waited too long to reach out to my loved ones and others for the support I have needed for a LONG time. I hid it, I kept on the happy, confident mask making sure everyone thought I had a great life....hiding the turmoil within.

So, with the help of those around me, I pick myself up and I put one foot in front of the other and just get through one day at a time. I started a 6 mth heavy training program with Freddie at Mountainside Fitness yesterday and I LOVE him! He is going to be the PERFECT trainer and coach for me. He's a little crazy and very high energy - and KNOWS HIS SHIT. He has been doing this for many years.

He told me what to do to reach my goal by June 1st and we're ON IT baby! I feel it this time...and not because I "should" want it -but because I feel it in the pit of my tummy and the heart of my soul. My life is going to change this year. I am excited to be ON the journey and I'm goint to focus on ME, allow myself to feel the emotions I have, quit hiding the fact that I and my life aren't perfect, and love myself.

"If you have the courage to step outside of your comfort zone, you will not only be amazed by the marvel and sights of the world, but also with the wonders that lay deep within yourself." -Rosanna Ienco