I Signed Up Today

December 24, 2008

Today I signed up to get my life back. I used to be so slim and I used to enjoy working out with my husband, hiking, dancing, and swimming.

I've gained over 25 lbs over the past couple years and I hate myself. I want my life back.

I'm tired of avoiding social situations because I'm embarrassed of how I look and I don't want people saying "What happened to her?" I'm tired of feeling depressed. I'm tired of hating the mirror. I'm tired of hating myself.

My life is passing me by. I have missed trips with my girlfriends, pool parties, birthday parties, Halloween parties, BBQ's, happy hours with friends I don't see anymore, cruises, ...you name it, the list goes on. I'm tired of making excuses for why I can't go. I'm tired of hiding from my husband.

I want to laugh again. I want to have fun getting dressed again. I want to enjoy getting ready to go to work, to go out, to go on a trip. I want to play . . .to dance . . .to smile. I want to be able to look in a mirror and FEEL GOOD. I want to live.

Today is the day I commit to connecting to my spirit and I commit to my body, mind, heart and soul. I will love who I am again. I commit to living my life, I commit to Kelli. I commit to being the best possible person I can be, and know that each day my best may change and if my best isn't as good as the previous day, I will not be so hard on myself.

I commit to being this happy person again...the one in this photo who loves to play, to laugh, to meet new people and to be out in the world - IN IT, LIVING IT, LOVING IT...I'll be better than ever!!