Dec 30, 2009: I don't know all of my updated stats but I do know I'm wearing size 6 jeans. I just read the "Story" I wrote and I am so thankful I'm in a different place. The good news is that there was a reason for half of the weight gain and a reason I was unable to lose it regardless of how hard I worked out and how healthy I ate. I had a massive quantity of Candida in my blood from years of Prednisone and antiobiotic usage due to my asthma. It affected my body and my mind in all kinds of crazy ways...it's literally an organism that feeds off of you and sucks the life out of you....causing severe depression and "brain fog". It also makes you crave sugar like you've never experienced!

I am eternally greatful to the NMD I found who finally discovered the cause of these life debilitating symptoms that encompassed my being for 2 + years. I urge anyone who finds themself not feeling well and you KNOW yourself and your body and your regular physician keeps prescribing things like antidepressants, sleeping pills and whatever chalking it up as "stress" to go out find an NMD and find out if there might just be something to it!

I don't know my stats today, but it's not really that important anymore. What's important is that I feel like a living, breathing, beautiful person inside and out again. I estimate I may have about 15 lbs to my "comfortable" self, but weight doesn't matter as much as it did 6 mths ago! I am working out 6 days/week with my trainer, eating healthy, stronger than I've ever been and loving life. I am truly blessed and thank God for the ability to see it again!

Jan 3, 2009: 65" tall, 159 lbs, 35.7% body fat, Size 10, 34" waist, 43" hips, 13" neck

Feb 19, 2009: I really didn't COMMIT to getting my body healthy and in athletic form again until Saturday February 7, 2009 so you will not see any changes in my "stats" for a few weeks. I am committed and training daily and eating healthy foods that fuel my body. I am committed.

My Story
So, I'm going to post my before picture as much as it scares me because it needs to be seen. I need to get over it so I can lose the fat and transform my body. I will be careful not to say "to what it used to be" because I want a new and never before seen body that's BETTER than it used to be.

I'm 37 yrs old and I have turned into the cliche that I said I would NEVER be. I got married 4 years ago and got fat. My husband and I used to work out every day together. I used to get up at 5am and hike Pinnacle Peak Mountain (4 mi) and meet him at the gym after work for weights. We loved working out together. On weekends, we would hike another mountain near us and then go to the gym together.

Then, we got married. I left my company and got a new career as a realtor. We moved into a new house that is about 20 min from town. Triple wammie. I got my man, I got into a career that has no structure whatsoever, and we moved far enough away from everything I love - my friends, the gym, shopping, and my social life! OH, and now there's the worst economy most of us have ever seen and I'm in residential real estate. YAHOOOO!!! I got depressed, I developed very bad habits without having a set schedule, and 25 to 30 lbs later, here I am. I don't even know the exact weight because I stay away from the scale - I know from my size -that's quadrupled! Boohoo

Now, he works out without me and I resent him for it. I take it personally every time he asks me to go to the gym with him. I know inside he just wants to work out with me again, but I get upset and . . .poor a glass of wine and order up a pizza!

I am the cliche I said I would NEVER be. I avoid life now. I wear those awful sweat pants or baggy pajamas while I work FROM HOME as much as possible. I say no to meeting friends out and tell them it's too far and gas is too expensive (that doesn't work anymore!), I turn down tickets to baseball games, I tell my husband I have to work so I don't have to meet him and his co-workers out, I don't plan weekend getaways, and I don't do my favorite things anymore. I don't go dancing. I don't go to the ocean. I don't vacation to the water. I don't shop and create fun outfits . . . and I LOVE clothes! I love to look good in clothes.

I'm DONE feeling so bad about myself! I'm done turning into a balloon. I'm done feeling sorry for myself. I'm done watching life pass me by because I'm too embarrassed to do anything or go anywhere. I'm done looking at my fat face in the mirror and hating it!

I will not only get my shape back, but I will be better than ever! I commit to working on my body, my heart, my soul, and my mind.
No MORE Excuses! It's time to live again. It's time to enter my life and enjoy it. I want to know what my body is really capable of becoming.

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You can conquer almost any fear if you will make up your mind to do so. For remember, fear doesn't exist anywhere except in the mind." Dale Carnegie